emo-ing

I urgh~suddenly..umm...grrr~sigh~I can never...haiz..I...hmph! I am suddenly angry at myself, hate myself for all those thoughts and want to kick myself in the ass if only my heel can reach my ass in a swift hard kick..sigh~I lose..ARGH~!! I want to erase the feeling..the thought!! The malicious and evil and contagious..I shouldn't have done what I have done..I hate myself for doing it!! *(*&^&^%$%$