so left out...

ok hang on a minute!
what the heck is happening to me??!
why am i stuck here dining on mee cup?
i feel so left out suddenly.
so left out of my friends' lives.

i just read my friend's blog and out of a sudden i feel this kind of weird loneliness which i shouldn't have felt.
my friends i have known since young got together during the CNY for dinners, hanging out etc but they never even invited when all I was doing was stuck at home reading storybooks.

ok, i AIN'T a nerd.

and all the while i thought that they didn't have the time to meet up. they even know each others' friends but who knows my friends?

hey, what about me?

yeah, i do agree that my mom used to control my life but now she has let me live my life and i can go out as often as i want.
when i got back here, so many things happened that i was so depressed and again i felt so lonely with nobody to talk to. probably i am sensitive..but i am always the last one to know something be it sad or happy.
i have always thought i have friends..people see that way too. but do i really? or is it just my hallucination?

who is REAL and who is UNREAL?
nobody knows..are you REAL?
am i REAL?